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2018 - October

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I think there needs to be something more positive here.

I no longer reject my need to make art. It is important to me, just as eating and breathing. After many years of being ignored, criticized, and discouraged to make art by the people I respected, I realize that I need to fight extra hard to tap into that positive space. It sucks but it makes for good angsty content lol.

For my friends and lovely people that still stick around and comment on/ like/ follow my work, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Onto more updates! I'm going to SacAnime Winter 2019 and tabling for the first time in a long time! I'm hoping to try to break into the convention Artist Alley scene I'll be trying my best to improve and create cool art and merch. I'm also wracking my brain and turning over the idea of setting up a system for taking commissions but that will probably have to wait until after this school year. I get tired very easily these days so it's been a huge challenge to try to balance my energy levels. I'm too conditioned to pushing myself to the brink of nausea and exhaustion (thanks Berkeley!) and that's not healthy at all.

If you'd like to see more activity, I'm posting a lot more sketches and WIPS on my Instagram Rynris. That's where my inktober stuff goes and I don't necessarily post small things like that here.
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Reflections

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I hate myself.

I hate myself for liking to draw.
I hate myself for spending hours drawing on scrap paper instead of studying.
I hate myself for squirming at my desk, needing to create.
I hate myself for daydreaming in class about my next idea.
I hate myself for getting carried away with a doodle during lecture.
I hate myself for getting jealous of other artists.
I hate myself for feeling sad that my mother never praised my art.
I hate myself for my lack of improvement.
I hate myself for saying I will never be an artist.

I hate myself for loving art.
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So... if I open up the chance to commission me, would anyone be interested?
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AOD 2016 Recap

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Aaahh conventions. It's so nice to be back to the scene. Thanks for stopping by my table if you did, I really appreciate it.

AOD was a blast, although the AA was a little scarce this year and the tables cramped. Nevertheless, I enjoyed myself with my friends and got to share my art which is always a nice thing. Also, I'm really happy that my cosplay group and I won runner up Best of Show at the Masquerade this year! AOD consistently holds the best Masquerade I've ever been to (and the most supportive crowd) so being able to perform there has always been such a pleasure.

That being said, I may think about taking a break from tabling for a while and spending more time creating art, whether it is through art pieces or cosplay.
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Quick update!

Guavi and I will be tabling at AOD 2016 in Santa Clara! We're super excited and have a couple new prints to share with you all. Sorry this isn't a nicer post but I'm scrambling to do too many things right now but I promise it will be great. Check us out at the Cosplay Masquerade Saturday night as well! We'll have baller costumes and our skit will be a SMASH. Haha hope to see you guys there! Stop by to say hello!

And here is a link to my tumblr post which has a handy picture to show you where we will be. Sorry, I can't make a nicer map doodle this year. @__@
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